I’m not sure why….but this song really has hit me in the heart. This is from the Hope for Haiti Now performance featuring Justine Timberlake and Matt Morris.
What does it say to me? It says that we face many challenges in life – and no matter what God is by our side. We can question what is happening in life – but in the end only one thing matters: the love of God. I may not be a very religious person but I believe in the love of God. I know he has NOT forsaken me in all I face right now. He did not create the strife in my life. He is next to me – by my side making everything easier to face.

If you want to do a little reading click here and read about what the song really means. And here is the video of Justin Timberlake and Matt Morris performing Hallelujah for the Hope For Haiti Now fund raising event:

Here are the lyrics:

Now I’ve heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don’t really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I’ve walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I’ve seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What’s really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don’t even know the name
But if I did, well really, what’s it to you?
There’s a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn’t matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn’t much
I couldn’t feel, so I tried to touch
I’ve told the truth, I didn’t come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Long time no see!

Oh my!! I’m bad. I haven’t updated the blog – but that is a good thing! I’m feeling pretty good (just the minor little tummy stuff that is NOTHING in the big picture of life)!

This Wednesday is the LAST CHEMO!! To celebrate Perry will be going with me. He wants to see what they do. OK, I sit down…the poke me…I sit more…and more…and then go home. LOL Not sure what he thinks! Maybe he wants to get into the wild game of cribbage we had last time.

I’m sitting here watching the news about Haiti. And I think I’m having a bad day? Sometimes it takes this to really shake a person back into reality! Its given me the chance to count by blessings! Family, baby Cailin, friends….everyone in my life. Nothing material means too much when you think about it. It can all be gone in the blink of an eye.

Hug your loved ones – and hug your hounds!!

Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.

The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together…. 

Author unknown…

In loving memory of:

 Bucksnort who went to the bridge on 10/23/08 at 9 years 

And Bullet who went to the bridge on 12/16/08 at 13+ years

Hang on guys! The party is starting soon! Your brother Bo will be there to be by your side! I love you so very very much!

Sad news about Bo

In September 2006 Perry and I began fostering Bo and Luke. They were a bonded pair of hounds that immediately stole our hearts!

This is Luke

This is Bo
In October 2006 a wonderful family adopted Bo and Luke as a pair. Unfortunately Bo was not happy there (OK, he was trying to eat their parrots and was not being very nice to his brother, Luke). We took Bo back on a trial basis. The night Bo came back to us Luke blew a disc in his back….he never did regain full use of his legs yet lived a very happy and loved life until the end of 2009 when we went to the bridge.
Bo happily became a member of the Ritchie family. He joined the pack along with Bosco, Bucksnort and Bullet. Over the last year we saddly lost both Buck and Bullet….but also added Snickers!
Before Bo came to live with us he suffered from an auto immune disorder that affected his facial muscles. The only treatment involved high dose steroids….which in the end affected his strength. Over time Bo has gotten weaker….he is unable to hold up his head and has a large hump in his back. We’ve been lucky – we have a great vet who knows we do not want any extra measures to “extend his life.” We just wanted to keep him happy and as pain free as possible.
And now, it is time to say good bye to Bo. He cries in the mornings when he tries to get up. He isn’t eating as well as he usually does. He is incontinent and is wearing a belly band. This is just not the way for him to live. He isn’t happy – he just tries to make me happy. He is my chemo buddy. When I’m sick Perry puts him on the bed with me so we can cuddle. Bo gently licks my face as I fall asleep. He is always there for me….and now we need to be there for him.
Bo is one of the most gentle bassets I have ever met. As an example take a look at this photo – Cailin was curled up on her puppy taking a very safe and restful nap.
On Saturday, January 9, Perry will take Bo to our favorite vet and hold him close as he crosses to the bridge. I cannot be there. I guess I’m a wuss! But I need to remember him as he is right now and when he leaves my home…happy-go-lucky and wagging his tail.
Please say a prayer for my Bo. Light a candle to help him find his way to the bridge…
I love you so much, Bo! Luke, Bucksnort and Bullet are there waiting for you! No longer will you be in pain! You can run free and be happy. Watch over us until we meet you there!!

The Side Effects

I guess when they say that the effects of chemo can be cumulative I should listen! My last chemo was on December 30th and it is kicking my butt! The fatigue is the worst. I think I could sleep 3 days in a row without batting an eye! But, that cannot happen. I’m having some stomach issues which are a side effect from the chemo. I’ve been on antibiotics three times since the beginning of chemo and now it seems I’m suffering those consequences. Funny thing, too many antibiotics can trigger an intestinal infection! Tomorrow I have an x-ray to make sure the tummy is okay. My blood counts look ok – although my white blood count is pretty high. But that is actually normal – I get an injection of Neulasta after each chemo which stimulates the white blood cells. This time it is a wee bit higher meaning I probably have an infection brewing somewhere. Tomorrow we should have more answers and a treatment plan.